Hey there, Fitness Friends! I had a victory today that was really part of a greater victory - one that Iām still very much working through - and I just wanted to share.
It has felt like bondage. No more. Iām done. Iām tired of fighting against my body, of feeling guilty when I eat, ignoring my bodyās hunger cues, or saying āI canāt have thatā out of fear.
So hereās what Iām doing. Iām still eating healthy. For the most part. If I crave chocolate, I have a little. I get seconds if Iām still hungry. Iām not going to read every label to make sure itās within what Iāve deemed an acceptable calorie range. Iām no longer counting calories. Iām not judging my hunger by someone elseās (e.g., heaven forbid I eat more than my husband). If Iām hungry, I eat something rather than convince myself Iām just thirsty, or trying to see how long I can go until I āgive inā and eat.
And when a friend came to church today and said, āI brought you a doughnut to say thank you for all of your effort in singing on the music group,ā I made the conscious effort to not freak out and calculate the calories and fat and reject the kind gesture... I ate the doughnut. And it was delicious!
If making peace with my body and with food - and learning to eat intuitively - means I gain a few pounds, then OH WELL! My mental and emotional freedom is worth it, and my worth is still intact.
Guess that wasnāt a long story short. Thanks for listening š
NSV: I ate a doughnut!
Hey there, Fitness Friends! I had a victory today that was really part of a greater victory - one that Iām still very much working through - and I just wanted to share.
I ate a doughnut this morning! This may not seem like a big deal, but to make a long story short, over the last couple of months Iāve realized that I have had an unhealthy view of food for myself. I know what to tell other people about eating, but couldnāt seem to apply it to myself (e.g., food isnāt inherently bad, an unhealthy meal wonāt ruin your progress, enjoy your food, etc.). I realized that I have had a ādiet mentalityā for about, ohhh...30 years! š®š© Ever since I was a teenager and went from having a skinny little girlās body to a womanās body. I have tied my worth to my weight, to whether or not my favorite jeans fit, to cellulite (which is NORMAL!), etc., etc. I have looked at food and hunger as an enemy, felt guilty and ashamed if I didnāt eat āperfectlyā during a day or had a cookie outside of a ācheat meal.ā
It has felt like bondage. No more. Iām done. Iām tired of fighting against my body, of feeling guilty when I eat, ignoring my bodyās hunger cues, or saying āI canāt have thatā out of fear.
So hereās what Iām doing. Iām still eating healthy. For the most part. If I crave chocolate, I have a little. I get seconds if Iām still hungry. Iām not going to read every label to make sure itās within what Iāve deemed an acceptable calorie range. Iām no longer counting calories. Iām not judging my hunger by someone elseās (e.g., heaven forbid I eat more than my husband). If Iām hungry, I eat something rather than convince myself Iām just thirsty, or trying to see how long I can go until I āgive inā and eat.
And when a friend came to church today and said, āI brought you a doughnut to say thank you for all of your effort in singing on the music group,ā I made the conscious effort to not freak out and calculate the calories and fat and reject the kind gesture... I ate the doughnut. And it was delicious!
If making peace with my body and with food - and learning to eat intuitively - means I gain a few pounds, then OH WELL! My mental and emotional freedom is worth it, and my worth is still intact.
Guess that wasnāt a long story short. Thanks for listening š