Hello lovely FB family!

I would love some input/help/anything from anyone out there..

Bit of a back story:

I am 37 y/o mum of 2. I suffer of BDD (mental illness where you reflection doesn't really match with reality in your head) however I am well aware of my trigger points and how to talk myself from silly breakdown. I work full time and currently a key worker as well, so quite stressful times. I am 160cm and now weight 72kg..

Now I am 1 day away from finishing my second 4 weeks program back to back with few extra rest days here and there. I have done low impact round 2 and tomorrow is last day of FB sweat. I started this journey with 69kg, angry at myself as not even pregnant I was this heavy, with a much bigger stomach and bum and determination to get slimmer so I wouldn't have a meltdown in holiday like i did last year about being in a swimsuit and crying for hours on end.

I have a pretty decent diet with the random sweet or savoury treat, but this are very minimal.

Anyway after 8 weeks of working my ass off I have just seen my scales number going slowly bigger and bigger, saying that I am totally disheartened doesn't even begin to cover it. I have to add that during both my pregnancies my stomach muscles split and never knitted again. Kiddies are not even 2 years a part but also this happened 8 years ago last time..

Any help of what the hell am I doing wrong and why those numbers keep rising would be immensely appreciated.

Much love to you all, stay safe x