I ended up rather derailed. I allowed family things to get in the way. A day or a week is one thing but 2 months is a long time. I recently came to appreciate just how important it is to make time for me. A good friend has helped me see that. I would acknowledge that fact, and talk the talk, but when it came down to it I was still struggling to internalize the importance of it. Some big things have happened and our family will experience some big changes. I am grateful to finally get it. That thing about needing to take care of yourself.
It is time for me.
Yeah family is super important (and mine is always supportive) but I need to also take care of myself. My first step is sticking to my schedule here. If I can do it for a month not allowing bs excuses to get in the way then my reward will be a FBplus subscription. Nervous but I really want this reward. I have Reach and Low Impact lined up and if it is a day I can not do one of the workouts I have back ups already chosen so I can do something for each type of day. You see my RA hit like gang busters and my left knee is all wonky. However I am taking steps for everything. My knee has been rough for a couple years. I finally saw a Sports/Ortho dr and now have PT to help. What...not blowing off dr visits for me because I want to save all my time for others? That's right baby I actually decided I should do this and committed! Kind of excited. Anyway back to the 2 programs, I do not have to do both just Low and then reschedule Reach for the next day. That way I can tailor things to how I feel that day and still complete 2 great programs. I already have Strong scheduled afterwards as yet another reward and it is scheduled to start on my birthday! Happy birthday to future me. I am going to assume I will be ready for it and if not then I will pick another program I have purchased (or grab one I have been eyeing) and go from there. I have no doubt Low will be finished. I will most likely still be doing Reach but that one pairs so well with others. Reach is just a bit of extra fun no matter how long it takes.
I want to be the strong person I know I am (physically and mentally). I am tired of contradicting myself, if that makes sense. I know I am strong mentally and can be again physically but I have been not always living that way and that disconnect has been leading to much stress and disappointment.
I am looking forward to PT Friday and have already made jotted down a couple questions!
Back for me
I ended up rather derailed. I allowed family things to get in the way. A day or a week is one thing but 2 months is a long time. I recently came to appreciate just how important it is to make time for me. A good friend has helped me see that. I would acknowledge that fact, and talk the talk, but when it came down to it I was still struggling to internalize the importance of it. Some big things have happened and our family will experience some big changes. I am grateful to finally get it. That thing about needing to take care of yourself.
It is time for me.
Yeah family is super important (and mine is always supportive) but I need to also take care of myself. My first step is sticking to my schedule here. If I can do it for a month not allowing bs excuses to get in the way then my reward will be a FBplus subscription. Nervous but I really want this reward. I have Reach and Low Impact lined up and if it is a day I can not do one of the workouts I have back ups already chosen so I can do something for each type of day. You see my RA hit like gang busters and my left knee is all wonky. However I am taking steps for everything. My knee has been rough for a couple years. I finally saw a Sports/Ortho dr and now have PT to help. What...not blowing off dr visits for me because I want to save all my time for others? That's right baby I actually decided I should do this and committed! Kind of excited. Anyway back to the 2 programs, I do not have to do both just Low and then reschedule Reach for the next day. That way I can tailor things to how I feel that day and still complete 2 great programs. I already have Strong scheduled afterwards as yet another reward and it is scheduled to start on my birthday! Happy birthday to future me. I am going to assume I will be ready for it and if not then I will pick another program I have purchased (or grab one I have been eyeing) and go from there. I have no doubt Low will be finished. I will most likely still be doing Reach but that one pairs so well with others. Reach is just a bit of extra fun no matter how long it takes.
I want to be the strong person I know I am (physically and mentally). I am tired of contradicting myself, if that makes sense. I know I am strong mentally and can be again physically but I have been not always living that way and that disconnect has been leading to much stress and disappointment.
I am looking forward to PT Friday and have already made jotted down a couple questions!