70 days to malibu Day 8

Whooooo

This was a good and sweaty one!!!

Hi everyone 🤗🤭

I'm not sure if I mentioned before

I'm a mother of four children between the ages of 10 and 3

They are all home this summer so I have a lot of foot prints and marker "prints" on the walls and sealing

I've just finished this workout and it's 12:10pm

This is HUGH for me because my form of survival is people pleasing.

I've learned from #strugglecare on Instagram that that is a form of emotional regulation.

If I understood correctly...

It means that I have for most of my life calculated and seen and felt my value and energy by looking and feeling what I think others may feel

I have pleased other in order to keep the energy and smiles up

I thought that I was doing it for them

But now I know that all this time I was protecting myself from a downfall

Working to keep the world happy is veery hard work

It's tiring it's depressing and it keeps me down feeling like a rag

So now I'm working on putting me first

This ironically will teach my kids to cope with patience

And I hope to someday be an example by being not by "teaching"

Thank so very much for your support 💜💜💜

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